The Perfect Autumn Day

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Sitting outside in this chair.

It’s an absolutely beautiful day- The sun is shining brightly and full. The clouds are little magical pillows in the sky and the breeze is cool. Crisp.

The perfect autumn day.

I suppose I “should” be feeling amazing right now- I’m off work. Filled with nourishing food. My hot tea keeping me company. I feel the cool breeze on my skin. The sunshine warms me. Soaks into my body from outside the threads that cover my human form.

No expectations from anyone.

Just being.

But there’s this incessant feeling I have deep within me. Chest aching. Stomach churning.

The feeling of unease. The background of my mind moves as if searching for something.

Answers, maybe.

Leaving me feeling incomplete in this moment, as if something is missing.

And I believe it has nothing to do with what’s going on externally, and that it has everything to do with me.

Perhaps there are no external expectations on this day, but internally, I have many mental boxes that have left to be checked off. That running list of things I feel I must do…or else!

“Or else” you might ask?

Or else.. I won’t:

-be good enough.
-reach my full potential.
-feel worthy.
-feel accomplished.
-be successful.
-become financially independent.
-get out on my own and live the life of my dreams-living on MY terms.

Total illusions of reality.

So many “or else’s” it can become overwhelming to write them all out.

But in doing so, in writing out all of those persuasive reasons as to why I feel bad and incomplete in this moment, it helps me to realize something.

It helps me to realize that every feeling I ever experience in my body comes from my thoughts. From my mind. Like my mind and body are completely and wholly and directly linked to one another.

That realization is so powerful. And freeing if I allow it to be.

Because, you see, as soon as I come to realize that what I’m feeling is a direct reflection of what’s going on in my mind, I end up with 2 choices:

#1. To change my thoughts which in turn will change the feelings in my body.

OR

#2. To continue the exact same thought pattern, getting the same results- good, bad, or otherwise.

These anxious, tense, and uncomfortable feelings in my body are mere creations of my mental habits.

Worrying about the future-about not having enough, not doing enough, not being enough. Never “arriving” to enjoy my successes.

But the truth is that I’m already a success. I’m a success right now.

-I’m alive.
-I’m breathing.
-I’m growing.

And isn’t that one of the main purposes of our existence anyway?


So yeah, I may not be where I want to be…but I’m absolutely positive that I’m where I’m supposed to be right now In my life. In this moment. In this journey of existence.

And in order for me to become this huge success that I have envisioned for myself?

Well, that will take work. That will take being first, unsuccessful.

To be doing- well, the work I’m doing right now.

So I’m deciding now, in this moment, that I am okay. I’m finding my feet once again. I’m embracing where I am right now.

And I’m honoring myself.

Because truthfully, I am exactly the person I need to be now, in order to become the person I want to be in the future. In order to reach my destination.

So I’m going to keep on keeping on. Keep my nose to the grindstone, doing whatever it takes to get to where I’m going.

All the while knowing that I will meet hardship. Pain. Sadness & defeat.

But that’s all a part of the process. That’s all a natural part of this life. And when I change my expectations to become aligned with the realities of this life, living it doesn’t seem so hard afterall.


I look into the sky in wonder. What an absolutely magical existence this is. The mere beauty within a single cloud. A single ray of sunshine. And how grateful I am to be a part of it.

I close my eyes and smile. I am whole once again.


Thank you for reading! I love you.

You are special, and you are divine. Keep on keeping on and know that this life is completely worth living! Find the magic and beauty in your life.

In this day. This moment.

And smile. Because all we have is now. Take advantage of the life given to you today, and make your life truly meaningful.

Take care friend. 🙂

And until next time,
❤ Brittany

For more inspiration, feel free to visit me at my other blog Huckleberry: A little dash of inspiration.

Confessions of a “Foodaholic” (Part 2)

Hello friend! Thanks for stopping by!

This post is the second part to an earlier post last week. If you’ve not read it yet, I highly encourage you to start here 🙂


Photo Credit: http://www.independent.co.uk/
Photo Credit: http://www.independent.co.uk/

So without further ado, I’ll continue on.. 🙂


So you know how I told you that I’m a highly emotional person as well as an emotional eater?

Well, you may be able to see the point I’m trying to get across then:
These are 2 ingredients in a recipe for disaster!

Not to mention their potential to cause some major problems for me in my daily life. (Especially if I’m caught unaware of the behavior to begin with.)

So basically, any time that I feel an emotion whether:

  • Happy. 🙂
  • Sad. 😦
  • EXCITED! 😀
  • Frustrated :-/
  • BORED 😛

I eat.

It’s not always unhealthy foods either, it’s just too much food.

So that’s THE BIG SECRET. My personal truth.

And I’m a health coach.

But I won’t hide it. I struggle too. And we’re all in this struggle together, you know.

It makes me feel better to think of it that way at least.

And I’ll tell you another thing – Sometimes I just own it. Like, I’ll be eating because I’m really nervous about something, and I’ll notice that I’m eating emotionally..

And then I keep doing it anyway.

But then I eventually stop. And my stomach will hurt.

That generally keeps me from doing it again for a long time.

Until the next time.

But I keep getting better.

In fact, I’ve learned a few tricks, rules, laws, principles, (whatever you want to call them) of eating that I’d love to share with you today.

These tiny adjustments in the way that I eat and think about food help me not only to notice when I start eating emotionally, but also to stop immediately (when I want to, of course.) 😉

Sometimes I still fail.

But that’s okay.

It’s a process.

And there’s no use beating myself up over it either.


So here they are:

BRITTANY’S 10 RULES FOR EATING:

#1. Eat when hungry.

#2. Stop eating when satisfied. (Not bloated, but not hungry anymore either.)

#3. Before I take a bite of food, I ask myself: “Am I eating because I feel a hunger pain in my body?” If the answer is no, I PUT THE FOOD DOWN IMMEDIATELY AND BACK UP REAL SLOWLY.

#4. Use smaller serving dishes for meals.

#5. ALWAYS put food on a serving dish. Then only eat the serving I put on the plate.

#6. Never “snack” out of the pots and pans on the stove. (Overeating is inevitable at that point.)

#7. DON’T buy snack foods I don’t want to snack on when I’m at home, alone, weak & emotional.

#8. When I bake cookies, place the “extras” OUT OF SIGHT. I will eat them all if I see them. (I’ve got some severe sweet tooth problems, my friends!)

#9. When I notice I’m eating emotionally, drink water and go outside. Breathe fresh air, and think of all the things I’m grateful for.

#10. NEVER BEAT YOURSELF UP! It only makes things worse. I accept that I didn’t do my best, and I make a vow to do better next time.


So those are some little pieces of advice that help me to keep moving forward towards my goal of living a more health-filled life.


Some other nice things to think about..

ALWAYS REMEMBER: You are NOT alone.

Any problem, sad emotion, or upset feeling you ever get? Someone has been there before. Or is there now.

You will be okay.

Nothing lasts forever, including painful experiences.

Allow yourself to FEEL.

(Just don’t go and eat your whole kitchen because of your feelings. Not worth it.)

And remember that I love you. ❤


Now go take some much needed time to yourself 🙂

Meditate.

Breathe deeply.

Think about every thing you have to be grateful for.

Smile.

Be grateful.

Love yourself.

Give to others.

Remember that you are absolutely and 100% beautiful.

With the most love and gratitude a heart can hold,
❤ Brittany


Thanks for reading! Please feel free to comment or ask questions below. Reach out if you need help! Let me know what comes up for you while reading this. I’d love to hear from you 🙂

“Now go feel alive! And don’t forget to LIVE WITH PASSION!”

Benefits of Change (why I keep going)

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Change is uncomfortable. I don’t like it. Being uncomfortable? Forget it. If I have a choice between pain and comfort, I will instinctually choose comfort over pain any day. It’s in my nature. It’s in all our nature.

But sometimes the pain of staying the same actually outweighs the pain of change. It is only until the pain of change outweighs the pain of staying the same that I make the choice to change (go through pain, be uncomfortable.) Because at that moment, I know –deep down– that I will see immediate and positive benefits in my life by doing so.

Here’s how my life has completely transformed since I made the decision to invite positive change into my life:

1. Weight Loss & Weight Stability

I lost over 60 pounds of unwanted fat over the course of 2 years. The first 20 pounds being in the first few months! I was pumped. I not only felt more amazing on the inside, but felt better about my appearance on the outside. I had more energy, and could fit into my clothes. I was a new person.

Now my weight is stable. (Well, apart from my random binges on chocolate, rice chips, or blueberry muffins!) I’m not perfect. I’m human. I still struggle with choosing healthy food over comfort junk food more than I’d like to admit. But for the most part, I’m to the point where I can recognize when my overconsumption on less clean foods is getting out of hand, and make the conscious decision to eat less of them. This is how I keep on track. It’s a constant struggle, but it’s worth it.

2. Skin Transformation

I used to have the worst acne. My cheeks, chin, forehead, (even my eyebrows!) had bumps and blemishes. They would be the deep, painful, blistery ones too. They hurt. They pained me when I looked in the mirror. I felt ugly. And I was uncomfortable! I would just sit and cry, asking “Why me?” ALL THE TIME.

I’m pretty sure I became ugly to others too, stemming from all my self-hate and pain that I was feeling and believing about myself on the inside. What you believe about yourself truly shows on the outside. Start believing positive and empowering thoughts about yourself and you’ll change your life. Don’t take my word for it, try it for yourself. 🙂

Now, my skin is clear. I still get the occasional blemish or two around ‘that time of the month,’ or if I eat too much chocolate, (I just freaking love chocolate!) But never again have I had the excessive problem with my skin since I changed what I put in and on my body.

3. Mind Reparation

I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression since I can remember. As a young child, I would be so extremely terrified to go to school that I would cry every morning. My mom would have to feed me Mylanta, a medicine to calm the stomach, most mornings because my anxiety was that bad. I don’t know what I feared so much, but I just knew I feared something.

My depression started when I was 17. This is when I fell in love for the first time. Boys break hearts, and I got mine broken plenty. I didn’t know who I was or what my values were. I was in a constant search for approval. I started eating emotionally. I became a binge eater. I’d literally eat almost an entire 1/2 gallon container of ice cream in one sitting. Then I’d throw it up and eat more. I was a sad person. I was a scared person. I was confused and lonely and looking for answers. I was put on anti-depressants to help. And they did. Sometimes. I needed to change something at the root of the problem.

I now can say that I’m free from that anxiety. I’m free from that depression. Although I still struggle with both from time to time in an effort to be perfect, to not make mistakes, and to be better than everyone else. But when I’m real with myself, and feed myself empowering thoughts and life-giving food, I become balanced. My mind is repaired. It is in balance once again. And how freeing that feels!

4. Saving Animals & Compassion

I’ve always loved animals. Not just enjoyed or liked animals, but LOVED animals. Like, animals feed my soul kind of love. I’ve always felt very connected with them in some way. I see a part of me in them. The part of me that is scared, timid, territorial, kind, full of unconditional love.

But I never put two and two together. I ate meat and thought nothing of it. I consumed dairy products without thinking about how they got from the animal to the grocery store shelves.

I was asked once by Nathan, my once friend now husband-

Nathan: “So, do you like animals?”

Me: “Yes! I LOOOOVVVVE animals!!”

Nathan: “Oh, so are you a vegetarian?”

Me: “(blank look) Uhh..no. (*feelings of guilt)”

He didn’t mean to make me feel that way, it was just a logical thought pattern. If I truly loved and cared about animals, why would I kill them (pay others kill them for me) and eat them? Valid question. It would make logical sense that I would be vegetarian since I LOOOOOVED animals so much.

I look back and laugh. I did NOT change that day. In fact, I didn’t change until over 2 YEARS after that. I believed I couldn’t quit meat. It was my main source of food. My thoughts went something like this: “Why would I become vegetarian? That would be ridiculous!”

That was me then. Oh how the times have changed. How my life has changed. I keep going on my clean eating journey because I can now eat with a clear conscience. My dinner plate is full of compassion. It makes me feel good that I can save animals. Save the planet. All from the food choices I make each day.

I feel that now that I don’t eat animals, nor their by-products, I am now proving my word. Proving what I believe in. Doing what I believe in. Serving a higher purpose. Feeling good about where my food comes from and how it got to my plate. No animals harmed. And that’s the way I like it. ❤

5. Lasting energy

Now that I eat clean, I have the lasting energy I need to get through the day, even that 2:00pm slump! (and it’s not with the help from my old favorite energy drinks.) No. It doesn’t stem from the wings from RedBull or the “heart attack waiting to happen” from Redline. It’s honestly all from the food I fuel my body with.

I believe that if we stop looking at food as our friend, and start looking at food as our source of fuel to get us from Point A to Point B, we would have a completely changed perspective and a different motivation/drive in the foods we choose to eat.

I still have a problem with eating emotionally. I have ever since I was a teenager. I also just REALLY LOVE FOOD so I’ll keep eating when food tastes really good. I’ve gotten better at this, but still struggle with portion sizes. I’ve found my own tricks that work for me. For instance, sometimes I literally just have to walk out of the kitchen because I lack the self-control to stop eating. It’s crazy!

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Now I’m not saying that all of these exact benefits will happen for everyone if they make the same lifestyle changes I did. This is just my personal experience. My story. This is what happened when I started eating clean. When I stopped telling myself that I can’t, and replaced those warped thoughts that don’t serve me with the belief that I can.

Our minds are more powerful than we think. Try turning around some of your disempowering thoughts and feed your mind positivity and empowerment. Just try it out for yourself and let me know how it goes!

I’ve healed myself & found freedom in food. Join me today on your journey to vibrant and transformational health. Make a few changes in your day, and see how much your life could change and improve starting now!

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Thank you so much for reading!

I am so grateful for you. I love you so much!

Remember: I’m here for you. If anything I mentioned in this post resonates with you, let me know! Share in the comments what comes up for you when reading this, I’d love to hear your thoughts!

And as always, feel free to contact me. I can help you. Let’s set up a 15 minute call and get you started on your journey to true health and vibrancy.

With as much gratefulness a heart can hold,
❤ Brittany